shit..the shower broke..no shower before sleep today..i stink.

just read a friend of mine's journal, suddenly find myself stagnating at the position i've been always at. It seems all my other old classmates have moved on and livin' an American style of life, get a gf/bf, mess around, find another one. What about me? Still considering having a gf is some kind of a not-a-good-student thing? which apparently results from my family's supervising me for all contacts w/ girls? Am I still hold on to the stupid so called Chinese Tradition of relationship while everybody else is livin' the international way? Maybe I am just being totally a studying geek...that is totally sad though...It is scary to imagine doing research alone everyday when you are 40 or 50 years old...Do I have to have 'fun' in order not to regret about the time I am having now? Why I don't consider it is fun at all? I used to think that they are weird, but it seems now, I am the one who is totally weird.

PS My roommate broke up w/ his gf. I still recalled last time her gf paid him a visit on his birthday. I was so envy of him that I couldn't help thinking about myself, thinking about Shanghai, thinking about her...but I now come to suspect that, does Long Distance really do not work out? I hope not, but I have no confidence at all...

I've been wanting to set up a web diary for a long time and it is at last settled...(sorry for still using stupid English, I'll improve as I write along)

Web diary is really popular here in US, Almost everybody has one. Well I have to admit that it is a good way to keep your memories, or you just let it pass...already let a lot of feelings at the first few months at US pass so have to make up for it.

Well, about today, I have to say the CS61A prof. is 'hella' interesting. Why CS prof. always make classes so enjoyable, or am I really a geek? hehe Math 1b is just like a relaxation since you kinda don't learn anything from it...but math 53 turned out to be not-as-challenging as i expected it would be. Well maybe i really have to wait till math110 or 100 something..Real Analysis to have the usual hard math...ok i am being totally a geek...but dude CS61A's hw is like 10 times the amount of CS3!! That is pretty scary. And I even got stuck on the lab question...stupid me...Well bought the Chinese reader, just began the first story, man it is funny, about a man trying to hook up a married woman, (it takes another 5 centuries for American to make up a movie called Unfaithful hehe) well i can never imagine reading that in a literature class in China..maybe that is why i don't have much interest in literature in China...sounds like i am totally a pervert, don't I? And then comes Philosophy 12A, a totally science class but in a humanity way of teaching--like ppl asking irrelevant questions all the time and prof. has a million ways to explain basically the same thing...it is boring...still don't believe they can make logic, something so interesting, into something that makes me sleep...

OK i think i write a lot today...hope to continue writing like this everyday...i bet i will..